Le Sigh

Not too long ago I made a big decision.
More recently I made another decision. One that reversed the first one.


I left New York for a good reason.
After almost 2 years of togetherness I had serious doubts.
Doubts about the past, about the present
But mostly doubts about the future.
Marriage? Kids? Forever-and-ever?

A lot of these doubts came about because of the stupidest little things.
Like, he didn't tell me EVERY DAY.
Or ever, really.

But the last few months I've learned a lot about forever-and-ever.
Its not about hearing the right things, or saying them.
Its about having someone who really knows you. And loves you.

Like tonight we went out to dinner with a group.
I was running late and told D to order for me.
He took one look at the menu and said "she'll have the chicken"
The rest of the group decided to wait to order til I arrived.
I took one look at the menu and said "I'll have the chicken"
The rest of the group laughed.

(By the way, if you are ever in LA, have dinner at the Lobster. Hello sunset.)

Forever-and-ever is also about being nice.
Too nice. Over the top nice. Gross nice.
Like on Wednesday I mentioned we were out of raisins.
On Thursday D showed up after work with raisins. Costco sized bag.
Then when we went to work out his iPod battery died
So I gave him mine and went without.
4 miles without music? That's love, people.

Le sign...